I want to believe

Hrm, this gem was sitting next to the previous.

I just read a segment in a social psych book about the credibility actors get from the roles they play.  For instance, an actor who portrays a doctor on TV may advertise for a drug.

This reminded me of a short-lived crush I had on Jodie Foster after watching the movie, "Contact."  She played a beautiful, intelligent, and very rational scientists.  I was drawn to her by her looks and passion about science and determination to promote it despite political obstacles.

I guess I knew, deep down, that she was merely acting the part, but I wanted her to be that person.  I rationalized that if she could act the part she must at least be somewhat capable of performing such a role in the real world.

But this discussion is merely prelude for my main point, which is I want to believe!  It feels damn good to feel strongly about something, perhaps doubly good if that something is somewhat irrational!

I want to believe in a lot of things.  I want to believe people are generally good-natured.  I want to believe I'll see world peace and en end to hunger.  I want my ideals to become a reality enjoyed by all.

But most of all, I want to believe in my own personal happiness.  Happiness isn't really something you work for, it isn't something you save up for.  It's something you believe in.