Procrastination

I am always procrastinating. Look at my TODO list. it's things i'll do "when i have the time." I have the time *RIGHT NOW*. For example, I have paperwork and taxes to do and have the time. I convinced myself to do the paperwork (and really, it took convincing! a ton!) and convinced myself I'd only go for a walk as a reward, and then do more work (i.e. taxes). I got to the point of writing out money for a medical bill and placed it in the envelope and stamped it. I thought to myself, I'll need to mail that at some point. Then I started thinking it was tax time. I caught myself. "Jordan, you're procrastinating again." Why shouldn't I just take the bill to the mail right now? I had nothing else to take to the mail, so I wasn't saving effort by batch tasking. I used another tactic on myself. "Well, I could use some fresh air, and the weather is nice." So I grab the envelope and head outside to deliver it. I then realize it's raining. I smile, put on my hat and coat and head out. It pleased me to be outside, even though dreary, accomplishing this simple task. All this self-manipulation and here I am. Getting something done *NOW*. Next time I have to put something off "until later" I'm going to ask myself "why not now?" If I have a good reason then I'll ask myself, "How are you going to remember to do it later?" And I'll force myself to be responsible for my decision. I hope I never forget or put off another important thing ever again in my life. Namaste, thank you God, bless myself.